So I have been really really sick.
This year I have suffered very little to bugs and lurgies going around but I think due to the running around I was doing for the new job, and the wedding, and everything else, my body wasn't at its best so when this bug came knocking on the door my body had little to do but to welcome it in.
It came on early last week. I worked half days Monday and Tuesday then took a full day off Wednesday. I felt allot better Thursday, Friday and Saturday and thought I had kicked it to the curb.
Saturday night the bug came back for round 2 and knocked me for 6!
I lay in bed or on the couch all of Sunday. I could barely move...coughed...sneezed...shivered...sweated...the works!
I'm back at work today still not feeling very good but knowing I'd feel worse if I wasn't here - I'd feel guilty!
But I heed the lesson. I push and I push to it all comes crashing down.
Time to rest and integrate.
Lots of hot water, ginger, lemon and honey for me.
On a side note - have you ever noticed "Eaze-a-cold" tablets make you have garlic flavoured hick-ups! LOL! I like them because they are natural but I don't think people sitting near me like them, lol!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Let down on the biggest possible scale
Okay - so I am venting for my own sanity cause I can no longer sort through the pool of emotions swirling around and distinguish one from another. Its all a muddle but here is the story.
My man has a pretty up-there job with a rather large bakery chain.
My oldest friend from school and her man recently fled Sydney leaving behind jobs, possessions, for personal safety issues. We never really knew the whole story why...but I supported her.
Anyway...She is my oldest friend. We have had our ups and downs but generally we have been there for each other. I thought if I could help out I would.
My friend was also pregnant...and had the baby 3 weeks ago. Her concern was always that she wouldn't have enough money once the baby arrived.
About 6 months ago we offered to help out. My man said he would be able to organize a job for my friends man, driving a truck, delivering items to the stores in their local area that my man managed.
It was a risk for us to organize as the delivery run was already being done and so allot of things had to fall in place for it to happen - but if it happened the pay would be very good for them and they would only need to work about 4 hours a day each day. Something that a new family would be grateful for - lots of home time still.
6 months passed and finally the job was ready to start. My man and I had argued allot about this job due to my friend sending weekly sms' indicating how stressed she was, and wanted the job to begin, blah, blah.
Another driver, a good friend of ours, was sent up with the new truck to instruct my friend on how to go about filling the truck with stock, delivering to the stores etc. My man and I were relieved that finally it was all underway and my friend would soon be earning good money again.
After 3 days we get a sms saying they won't be doing it anymore. They refuse. No reason. No explanation. No-one answering our calls.
Meanwhile we have a delivery run 6 hours north that needs to be done but no driver. We can't get there in time and my friend refuses to take our calls.We both panic. I cry. I cry at the let down ,and for what my man is about to loose. Potentially his job.
To insure this job went ahead my man put his name to it risking his job. If anything came un-done he would be unemployed. We didn't mind doing it as they were in need and a long time friend.
S*&% had hit the fan in a big way so I got to work making phone calls...all from bed while I suffered heavily from the flu.
I managed to locate a casual driver in the area through an old family friend and he started right away. We assumed that my friends man would at least go with the new guy the first night to show him how it is done (as he was shown) but we were told all the new driver got was some swear words and a slammed door in his face. The new guy didn't care much but we were furious! Still we had not explanation as to why other then they didn't want too anymore.
The couple knew well before the job was in place that 1 weeks full notice had to be given if they were to quit....and....if they couldn't do the drive, they had to find someone who could - they failed on both of these and left us on a dead end.
My little brother is now moving across state to help rectify the situation. I now owe monster favors to quiet a few people I know in that area....and all because we tried to help a friend...who still refuses to answer calls or give any explanation. Now I know the family well...there has been no emergency....no deep family tragedy....the baby is fine....they are fine....so the only explanation we can come up is they got too used to not working and couldn't take doing a real job anymore.
But the plot thickens...
This same friend was to be one of my bridesmaids at my wedding in 8 weeks :(
Needless to say I have since released her of that duty but I am baffled as to how big of a let down and kick in the gutts we just got for trying to help a friend?!
In no way were they under any illusions as to what the job was...and really driving a truck between 3 stores is not a huge ask if that is all you have to do in day. I am just flabbergasted.
Anyway...I write this to vent and process my thoughts. I feel numb...probably somewhat from shock of the greatly unexpected....but maybe because if I feel too much it will open a flood gate of uncontrollable stuff. Make sense?
My man has a pretty up-there job with a rather large bakery chain.
My oldest friend from school and her man recently fled Sydney leaving behind jobs, possessions, for personal safety issues. We never really knew the whole story why...but I supported her.
Anyway...She is my oldest friend. We have had our ups and downs but generally we have been there for each other. I thought if I could help out I would.
My friend was also pregnant...and had the baby 3 weeks ago. Her concern was always that she wouldn't have enough money once the baby arrived.
About 6 months ago we offered to help out. My man said he would be able to organize a job for my friends man, driving a truck, delivering items to the stores in their local area that my man managed.
It was a risk for us to organize as the delivery run was already being done and so allot of things had to fall in place for it to happen - but if it happened the pay would be very good for them and they would only need to work about 4 hours a day each day. Something that a new family would be grateful for - lots of home time still.
6 months passed and finally the job was ready to start. My man and I had argued allot about this job due to my friend sending weekly sms' indicating how stressed she was, and wanted the job to begin, blah, blah.
Another driver, a good friend of ours, was sent up with the new truck to instruct my friend on how to go about filling the truck with stock, delivering to the stores etc. My man and I were relieved that finally it was all underway and my friend would soon be earning good money again.
After 3 days we get a sms saying they won't be doing it anymore. They refuse. No reason. No explanation. No-one answering our calls.
Meanwhile we have a delivery run 6 hours north that needs to be done but no driver. We can't get there in time and my friend refuses to take our calls.We both panic. I cry. I cry at the let down ,and for what my man is about to loose. Potentially his job.
To insure this job went ahead my man put his name to it risking his job. If anything came un-done he would be unemployed. We didn't mind doing it as they were in need and a long time friend.
S*&% had hit the fan in a big way so I got to work making phone calls...all from bed while I suffered heavily from the flu.
I managed to locate a casual driver in the area through an old family friend and he started right away. We assumed that my friends man would at least go with the new guy the first night to show him how it is done (as he was shown) but we were told all the new driver got was some swear words and a slammed door in his face. The new guy didn't care much but we were furious! Still we had not explanation as to why other then they didn't want too anymore.
The couple knew well before the job was in place that 1 weeks full notice had to be given if they were to quit....and....if they couldn't do the drive, they had to find someone who could - they failed on both of these and left us on a dead end.
My little brother is now moving across state to help rectify the situation. I now owe monster favors to quiet a few people I know in that area....and all because we tried to help a friend...who still refuses to answer calls or give any explanation. Now I know the family well...there has been no emergency....no deep family tragedy....the baby is fine....they are fine....so the only explanation we can come up is they got too used to not working and couldn't take doing a real job anymore.
But the plot thickens...
This same friend was to be one of my bridesmaids at my wedding in 8 weeks :(
Needless to say I have since released her of that duty but I am baffled as to how big of a let down and kick in the gutts we just got for trying to help a friend?!
In no way were they under any illusions as to what the job was...and really driving a truck between 3 stores is not a huge ask if that is all you have to do in day. I am just flabbergasted.
Anyway...I write this to vent and process my thoughts. I feel numb...probably somewhat from shock of the greatly unexpected....but maybe because if I feel too much it will open a flood gate of uncontrollable stuff. Make sense?
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